I Wish I Could, But I Know I Can’t

To whom it may concern
I can only hope you understand
Though I did indeed yearn
I could not go through with it as planned
My mind did backflips and turns
But I found the thought I could not stand

It’s just getting too much fpr me to bear
Though in the morning, I will still be here

Deep sigh, I am not relieved
I’m tired of toughing it out
Just not tired enough to concede
This world can crush you like an ant
Oh, I wish I could, but I know I can’t

Laying here
It’s too painful to contemplate
All alone with my despair
It is the end I dream of and anticipate
Though it must wait, I can’t explain why
It’s some stubborn part of me
That refuses to die
Before finding harmony
So to hold on I must try

It’s just getting too much for me to bear
Though in the morning I will still be here

Deep sigh, I am not relieved
I’m tired of toughing it out
Just not tired enough to concede
This world can crush you like an ant
Oh, I wish I could, but I know I can’t