Religion, Have Faith

And I just don't know what to believe in
When nothing has substance or reason
In each changing season
There's only time retreating

The past stares at me teasing
A time at once pleasing
I'm a fucked up human being
Unsure of why I'm breathing

Hold on to your teachings
There's no rapture in freedom
Behind my mind, a sensation's creeping
Telling me to go find some place to fit in

This is no world to find peace in
So what's the point in deceiving?
Buy in/sell out to religion
Tell me, is your heart still beating?

Self-Loathing

You've disappointed me

Note no note of surprise

I’ve always been deceived

By kind, sorrowful eyes

No one’s fault but mine

Add another fault to list

I’m always keen to find

That which doesn’t exist

Write it down for record

No melody in my head

Every line is full of discord

Every rhyme is filled with dread

If only I could stop these voices being heard

I’d never have to write down one more painful word

I only sought to be an artist

Now I’m a fake like all the rest

I hoped to speak to passion

And somehow define myself

My aim I know is noble

My motives are sincere

I just can’t make up my mind

On where to go from here

No one’s going to love you

The way you need to be loved

And no one’s gonna save you

So you might as well give up

The creeping, lurching darkness now claws at my brain

I know that winter’s despair is yet here again

You Can't Do This To Me

So suddenly opportunity arose
Unexpectedly, as I had never known
A world of insecurities come to pause
That a moment of certainty could, is and was
Though with the day, it all seems like a dream
A miracle in sleep is only make-believe
You've woken something inside that yearns to be free
And to just disappear, you can't do this to me

Perhaps it is my youth or maybe I'm naive
I've always been the victim of my own ideals
Wanting to believe in something so very much
In my desire to touch you I might have lost touch
But when you've waited and waited for nothing to come
It's a miracle when you finally find someone
And to take that away, to deny what could be
It's not fair, it's not right, you can't do this to me